in defense of self…

for almost
an entire second
the soft underside
of her original emotions
of caring
and
empathy
were exposed
in her eyes
before
the hard
defensive shell
realigned
her spine
stiffening her posture
past pain
of
unhealed wounds
tho
the years since
were many
so
she continued
to
measure his vitals
detached
from this moment
evaluating
a car mechanic
in latex gloves
transcribing notes
onto a computer
whose screen
reflected
more
emotion
than she

initial crime scene report…

date
thursday 2/25/10
weather
clear warm temp at 70 f
arrived on scene at home office
location
somewhere short of sanity
a short frame structure with white trim
2 windows to the world situated
west side country miles from nowhere
summons
phone call from location by editor
witnesses
no eyewitness known.
body discovered at approx. 1445 hours by email carrier
victim
poet
dob
somewhat questionable
found lying face down at his computer
southwest or northeast orientation
appearance of heavy life wounds inflicted to top and left side of head area
evidence of numerous broken hearts
      world peace
      protection of the environment
      caring for others
extensive wounds to ego
the body is still warm to the touch.
victim appears to have been dead for a short time before discovery
victim is wearing white button down shirt with sleeves rolled to elbow
dried tears in eye area
top three buttons torn away
childlike
denim work pants
brown steel tipped work boots
boot soles and heels appear to be dirt encrusted
likely from the garden.
pants pockets are found turned out with no contents
likely from previous relationships
black cycling gloves
well worn and dirt encrusted
are found near the victim 
the victim appears to have been working on a poem.
measurements
see crime scene sketches
poet is found lying at computer near a bottle of wine and baguette
with a blank sheet of paper gripped in hand.
evidence collected
word shards scattered around room
split infinitives on table
half bottle of frene barbier mediterranean white wine
some leftover cheese
and a baguette
search of house
door to heart unlocked.
faith in progress screened in with door latched.
search of house shows evidence of robbery or vandalism
unorderly appearance
torn poems on the floor
shells of belief in various arrangements
a lingering smell of mothballed dreams
from living room bookshelf
a family photo album is taken into evidence
containing photographs labeled through some period of insanity
no additional evidence removed from house