suicide notes from america…

suicide notes from america...

i’ve become
more
depressed
lately
by
the
way that ignorance
has
enveloped
the
world around me
my
delusions
of
freedom
have
been
replaced
with such a deep
remorse
for
believing
and
dreaming
that
life
could be
as
promised
they
were always
eggshell hopes
but
gradient moments
of
freedom
kept
the fantasy
alive
but now
as
death
becomes
the main course
of
my future
i’ve
reconsidered
my insanity
as
a bit
of
self-hypnosis
brought on
by
societal spin
which
is
neither
here
nor
there
just
a side reference
for
my
note

i’ve lived…

i've lived2

nothing
will be placed
upon
the earth
to
mark
that i was here
it is
by my choice
for
no one
really
looks at graves
oh
someone
may wander by
and
comment
about
a clever verse
inscribed
upon
the marble
but
it is
the inscription
that’s
recalled
not
the person
no one
ever really knew
the
person
that
housed the soul
beneath
the flesh
that’s
why
we’re not recalled
we began
as a faded image
and
death
merely bleached
what
was left
leaving
at best
a sketch
of
what
people wanted
to
believe

mature individuals seeking…

mature individuals seeking

the wine stained carpet
holds
oak pews
worn smooth
from
ups-and-downs
pews
where
generic prayers
from hymnal page
twenty-nine
shall we gather at the river
are offered
as indemnification
in the event
that their souls
wash up
on heaven’s shores
hymns
offered in a voice
befitting
their status as
part-time believers
and
full-time seekers
of pleasure
the kinds of folks
you find
every weekend night
hanging tight
with those half their age
youths
impressed
with their worldly wisdom
wisdom
plagiarized
from the new yorker
and
regurgitated
after several glasses
of the
in drink
and though
they died year ago
the shell of their existence
still haunts this earth
with after dinner drinks
in hand
and
fantasies
fluttering around
their corpses

no es facil…

no es facil

aunt bea
always says grace
before eating
even if its
some takeout
that i dropped-off
on my way home
from work
she told me
there were times
when
there wasn’t much
on the table
but
family and friends
would stop by for dinner
everyone brought
something
a rabbit
or possum
an uncle had caught
cooked by his wife
some greens and corn
harvested by others
and
the occasional
bottle of whiskey
given as gift
from a wealthy employer
for
house cleaning
well done
and
even though
it wasn’t as much
as some folks had
everyone left
with
a full helping of love